My life ...

I've been questioning everything bout my life....
can't deny that i've learn a lot of things....
and ... the deeper i gone.... the more i will be covered with darkness and abysness ...
humility .... beings .... universe ... minds. ... relations .... all those things ....
and many ... many .... difficult to tell...
for there are too much of them ... until i donno how to categorize them and it seems that they are not needed to be ... we just named them ... wisdom ... or philosophy in other words ...
i found that things ... everything .. .whatever they are ... they are just crap ... in mandarin ...荒谬 ....
to tell the truth i'd though of study philosophy after my secondary school ... but i found that ... those are not what i want to learn or study ....
after have some brief knowing of what will learned in philosophy subjects in china and taiwan
they are more based on theory and study those old man
i, me myself i more prefer to enjoy thinking, from them to ourselves
i don believe in theory and i don like theory , they are not complete for me .... i believe in each and every posibilities ....
and today ... i just realise that have a great feeling in this ....
life ... my life ... just give it a smile and goes on
there is no need for me to find out anything , just thrown all those minds, "wisdom", thinkings, philosophy or anything ! just leave them behind and go on with my life and thats all !
somehow i feel so , i feel it in this way , deeply
and its like ... all of a sudden its like you suddenly saw a light from no where in your mind
life, and thats it , thats all bout it...
even i do though that we are just repeating our own and others life or past or present or maybe in future ... we are just repeating lifes , lives , events , for we might be the same and we are , as long as we are human .... theres nothing new in each and every different lifes ...
what happens here might happen with you, what i know , you might know , and all those great wisdom looks like there are no more but exist in those old days , no man cries for wisdom nowadays , they are just repeating what old time wiseman sayings ....
i din deny that there are totally none of them , there are still there just that ... their sound arent big enough to let us hear them and they won do so for the sake of who they are ... wiseman